Age is but a number? Yeah, no shit Sherlock. Thanks for the clue.

So... it's been awhile. I'm not sure what compelled me to update this, but here I am. Well, really I was talking to a friend about blogs and whatnot, and he argued that I hadn't shown him mine, and I insisted I had. Then I gave him this link. He said 'Oh, that old thing.' That made me laugh, mostly because it has become 'that old thing'. I hadn't updated in over a year.. a year and a half more like it. I had intended to at points, or even tried to once or twice. Whatever. So yeah.. anyway... yeah.

Recently, I turned 30. Yep.. the big 3-0. I'm not sure what's the 'big' part about it, but whatever. I'm 30 now. I've been saying for like, 6 months about being 'almost 30' to kind of ease into it. It was still weird to say it out loud for the first time. By now, I'm getting kind of used to it. My 20's are history, gone, done. When I look back I realized that they weren't empty. I've been some places, went to hell and back, and found my 'calling' as a philosopher. Not too shabby, I guess. There were plenty of trials, and some of them I'm not sure I'll ever pass, but really, I came to a point where that doesn't really matter. Why? Maybe because I grew up and realized that there are far more important things in life? Well, maybe a little, but not really. More like, it got tired. I got tired. It's like, who gives a fuck, right? Right.

But sometimes I look around, while on campus, and look at people in their late teens and the earlier half of their 20's. I wonder if I was that fucking clueless? Probably at points.  Though, by the time I was 25, I'd been through and dealt with things that people 30 years my senior widen their eyes at. Heh. Funny. Though, I had my moments. I can fully vouch for that. It wasn't until I hit at least 25 when I noticed the shift. Well... I notice it in hindsight. When it comes down to it, I've learned some things, and I still have more things to learn. That's kind of how it works, it seems. But really? I still don't have a fucking clue. I have a better idea, maybe? Maybe. Sometimes. What I do know is... I don't give a fuck about their bullshit. That's for certain. One might think that graduate school gives you some other source of perspective, but really it's just most driveling bullshit. Worth something? Sure. But in the end, I'm not sure exactly what.

So, totally off topic (not that I had one really in the first place), but you always hear that term 'a sign of the times.' I heard something recently that was kind of like that. Recently the website Twitter has become a big deal. I didn't even realize I had an account until I got an email telling me a friend had added me to their list. I was like... "I have one of those?!" It was from years ago. I don't even remember signing up. Why would I use something like this? I wouldn't. So really, yes, anyway. Something. Anyway, someone tells me about how two celebrities are having arguments over Twitter. I scoffed, getting the impression it was two hollywood waste products arguing about who was the bigger whore. But no... It was Trent Reznor (NIN) and Chris Cornell (former of Audioslave and Soundgarden). Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat? Are you fucking serious? Two of the 90's biggest alt rock icons having bitch fights over TWITTER?! Give me a fucking break, guys! Jesus... talk about a sign of the times.

And to add to that... the use of 90's alt rock for television commercials. I remember seeing this commercial that's all talking about self-improvement and 'living life to the fullest'... all that rose-colored glasses bullshit. It was a commercial for Visa. Okay yeah, there's problems with that already, but here's my actual issue. The song playing in the background? Today by The Smashing Pumpkins. The ONLY actual lyric they used was "Today is the greatest day I've ever known." Um... okay... so you're using THAT song to talk about living life and self-improvement? Exsqueeze me? I cunt hear you.. .cuz that has to be wrong. Right? No. They just took it out of context. That song is about suicide! Good fucking God! This is where my a good friend of mine would input 'Oh the humanity!' Usually that's too dramatic for me, but it kind of fits here. Yeah, anyway....

Well, I think it's time to take a deep breath, reflect on the quandaries in my mind, and take a moment to empty all of this garbage out of my brainmeats.

Something like that. Yeah.